Lost

I don't know how
But I did it
I lost myself.
I'm all alone in my head.
I don't understand why I am this way.
I lose myself more each day,
So then I try to take the pain away.
I get lost trying to find out why my family dropped me.
I was forced to my knees,
Because I knew I should repent.
My heart was taken out,
My time was spent.
I knew I was stupid
And still make one to many mistakes.
I tried not to care when your friends thought you were a saint.
You kept it hushed,
It was the dirty little secret.
Fore it was a sin and you refused to believe it.
And when I met her you threatened me.
You didn't want the secret out.
You hated me.
And I was tossed aside
The black sheep of the family.