After Years of Healing

I am open to the thought
Of forgiving you
After years of silence
Years of healing

But don’t ask me to forget
To just get over it
To simply pretend
It never happened

To deny it
Is to deny me
Deny my past, my present
Those nights of depression

Deny scars on my body
From self inflicted wounds
To numb the deep pain
Your actions produced

To pretend it never was
Erases all the healing I had to do
All the strength i had to attain
After being defeated by you

To remember my past
Is to honor myself
It is to remember
To take care of myself

Because even when I forgive you
I’ll still well remember what I felt.