Suffocating

I think the only thing more painful than
slowly falling apart
is having someone
shatter your heart into millions of pieces
without warning.
It’s like sitting peacefully
in a meadow,
breathing in the scent of daisies and
feeling the warm sun kiss your skin, and suddenly
a tornado sweeps in
and erases all source
of happiness left.
‘It’s better to burn out than fade away.’
Most would agree,
but I would rather slowly peel away a bandage
than tear it off.
I’d rather a light dim instead of
burn out immediately.
I’m no good with words
but what I’m trying to say is,
you were my oxygen
and now that you’ve been yanked away
I’m left here to gasp for something to fill my lungs.
Trying to grasp onto any form of relief.
You came and left and took everything good with you.
I would rather die a bloody death than live with this empty ache in my bones.