If Only

I wish you knew just what the fuck you do
You're in prison now because of only you.
I heard you were digging with meth again
I wish you'd stop and be my aunt and friend

My dad talks about his sister as if she's dead..
I just kind of want my aunt to get it through his head
You're strong, I know, so why go this road.
Let me help you so you're not alone

I just want someone who understands
But you go and get those cuffs on your hands
Supposed to be family but your just a dog
I wish you'd pull through the drugs and fog.

I could really use some help or love I never got.
But you're busy doing drugs while I smoke pot.
Being in prison while I cope with my fucking shit.
I wish you were here to listen and take a hit.

I try not to miss you all but I still do.
I was a child once and I actually remember you
But I don't know who you are because of the law
I wish the world of drugs wasn't all you saw.

Brenda I understand the pain this world brings
I know when no one understands, it stings
But you have a son, my cousin who wishes more
He wishes he had his mother instead of that whore.

I know they arent happy because of her.
All you have to do is take your place for sure
We could be happy , my dad could speak of you as art of the living
But I fear I'll never know if you plan on living..or even beginning..

I just want someone to understand..
They say friends come and go
But family is forever..
Tell me is my only family dead
Or do they even know

Do they know how much I hurt and how much I need
I only want you to see how much I bleed.
I only want to cry and run into your arms
While you assure me, my head is the only storms

I need someone and your the one not here
I pray for you even though my faith is clear.
I believe in nothing but strength you see
And I know you have it, if only you loved me...