Your Name Burns Hot When I Write It. It Feels Heavy When I Say It Outloud.

Are you going to look for me
When I have gone away?
When I go hiding in the woods
For one thousand days
To clear my head?
There were things left unsaid, but little do you know I'm better off dead
Instead,
I say the same line
I say I'm doing just fine
I used to think I set a fire in your eyes
But I've come to realize
That was just the reflection of the one you set in mine
There's only so much I can take
You can bend me so much until I will break
My mistake
Our love was fake
I can't shake the feeling but now I'm awake and my heart aches.
I was blind but now I see
You weren't the person you claimed to be
I can hear you whisper
But you can't even hear me when I'm screaming
Please wake me up and tell me that I'm dreaming!
I have black and blues on the surface of my chest
You knew me at my best
Yet you still put your feelings at rest
While I express and invest in you
I was blessed&impressed by you!
I was obsessed&messed up by you!
But I know that
You know that
I know that
You don't really care
Does it seem fair that I smoke to remember the taste of your kiss that night?
That while my lips were connected to yours you already gave up the fight?
Now all I do is lay in bed,
Stare at the ceiling
With my wrists stained red
It's not appealing, the feeling,
But I am dealing
Without you.