Chasing Tails

It is that pump in your chest,
That thrill to be the best.

That echo in your voice,
That stupid, foolish choice.

That irresponsible mistake,
That smile ever so fake.

That mad love affair,
It's just not fair.

How he caught you,
How he loved you,
How you were untrue,
Yet that he went through.

He took a bullet,
Every single hit.

You took a moment,
Left him a commandment.

You played him your song,
He tried to see no wrong.

You sang your soul out,
He couldn't begin to shout.

You knew his weaknesses,
As well as your strengths.

Such speechlessness,
Support at great length.

The life of a cheater,
Of a soul beater.

You beat down your own soul,
Turned your sweet heart to coal.

It's that pain inside,
Telling you to go hide.

Yet you stray,
Light you'll obey.

It's that scientist inside you,
Dreaming of a world untrue.

Full of the world's longest skies,
But they exist if we open our eyes.

It's that singer within,
That has us begin.

It's that drama queen,
That has us seen.

Yet it's that awing beat,
That rhythm in your feet.

It has you run from pain,
And smile to the sun again,
It has you run from hurt,
And has you clean the dirt.

It's that love,
That inspires,
All the above,
To spark fires.

Fireflies fly higher,
Sparking the fire.

Fireworks torch ours skies,
Never seen beauty in these eyes.

Stars show us what we know,
But what we are too afraid to show.

It's going back to the start,
That has us value our heart.

It's the running round,
In circles all the time,
Falling to the ground,
Is what has us rhyme.

Chasing tails,
Many fails.

Breaking apart,
Just to test our heart.

Losing control,
Just to feel whole.

Realising what we already know,
Just to inspire; just to show.

Chasing tails all day long,
Singing her precious song,
So you understand,
Why she takes your hand.

Even though she hurt you too much,
She still longs for your velvet touch.

Her tears are proof of her human nature,
She runs just to get her own adventure.

She cries just to remember she's alive,
She bleeds so she can worthy this life.

She remembers just to think,
How life can fade in a blink.

How she used to play,
With her best friend each day.

Yet now, she's gone away,
And this girl has nothing left to say.

So she writes,
And writes.

And cries,
And fights.

And tries,
Ignites.

Strength is in her wings,
Dotted around those little things.

Love is in her name,
Her name isn't any game.

Swallowing her pride,
Just taking it in her stride.

Saying goodbye to pain,
To this overwhelming rain.

She will never know this again,
This unbelievable strain,
But this is what has her gain,
And know that there's no end.

She will live after the end,
And she will live on in her friend.

Who is now living in a different world,
She will never be apart from this girl.

Music has become her soul,
Something that makes her whole.

Something that blesses her nights,
The nights when she endlessly fights.

Nightmares cloud her mind,
But memories let her not be blind,
And love has her carry on,
Light in this girl will never be gone.

Chasing tails,
Love prevails.

Every time she doubts,
Every day she shouts.

Inside she screams,
Dreaming no dreams.

Inside she cries,
Seeing no blue skies.

Inside she believes,
And this hope never leaves.

Because she is forever just chasing tails,
And what strengthens her is her own trails.

The marks left behind a past life,
Reminding her how to feel alive,
Recalling how she used to feel,
When this air felt warm and real.

It is these marks that have her inspire,
To become a scientist and rise higher.

To become a girl who could carry pride,
And carry life's issues in her eager stride.

To be a singer who sings out her heart,
And who never lets fear tear her apart.

To realise all that she's always known,
To show the world all she's never shown.

Because here and now is her new start,
There's no need to be chasing tails now.

Her soul and heart needn't ever part,
And she'll spark her own fire somehow.

Because now she knows her own mind,
And how before she let herself be blind,
She knows a way that promises love,
And beautifully bold, blue skies up above.

This is why she believes,
But why doubt never leaves.

And why sometimes,
She can't find rhymes.

For life is more than words,
More than anything at all.

It sings out louder than these birds,
And like them, it has us fly and fall.

But now I will hear what's already been heard.

And I will believe in what I already know.

For I know myself to not be too absurd.

And I know that in Winter, I will adore the snow,
Living as the scientist within, who ought to glow.

For my life is my own show,
I will dodge each last blow,
This racing heart will never slow,
And this heart will never fall low.

Because now my own heart is my own foe...
♠ ♠ ♠
Meh.x.x.x