I Let Her Win.

I can hear them talkin,
The veins beneath my skin.
They beg and plead for their release,
For me to set them free.

Relapse seems so tempting,
But I know I can't do it,
So I write on my wrists,
With all my favorite lyrics,
And hope to return from the darkness.

Even with all the words,
Even though I've tamed the swords,
I'm tortured by all these noises
As they leave me with nothing but echoed voices.

It's sneaked inside my thoughts,
It's engrained it's mark into the brain,
Ruining everything I know and leaving me to rot,
Controlling my ever word and making me insane.

I thought I'd never feel this pain again,
I swore I'd make it stop,
But now I know it's never-ending,
And much stronger than we thought.

I didn't know I let it win until it was too late,
But now it's there and there it stays,
I know it won't go away.

I'm done with this,
Gone too far,
Fallen in this dark abyss.

So here I'll stay,
And here I'll die,
Lost the war too big to fight.