Will they send me to hell?

"And if I turn it on me, if I even in it out, can I still get in or will they send me to hell?"

What's it like to blame yourself for something that's entirely your fault?
What's it like to be filled with so much guilt?
Does it hurt to think of the lost lives?
Does it hurt to think of the boy who died
by your hand, while you escaped,
scratch free?

Do you often ponder over what could have been?
Do you ever think about that boys family?
Can you imagine the pain of losing a loved one?
Can you imagine the hurt at what can't be undone?

Do you feel as though new actions can reverse old mistakes?
Do you think you can fix this problem if death is what it takes?
Forgiveness is not found in running from your problems,
that's not how people get these so called God sents.