Alone Are You

The last one to go home and the first one to leave it
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You make your plea to a god you don't even believe in.

Why act so foolish before the door which you must cross through?

Are you afraid?

Is that why they mock and make fun at you in the halls of the institution of your mind?

They are only given the right to mock because you let them.

The power in words is known only to you but you fear to wield it.

A coward in a lion's skin you act all tough for those you don't even want to impress

And make those you truly care for look at you with displeasure.

You are the lonely soldier on the battle field who has told all his soldiers to fall back.

Leaving only yourself on the battlefield to be thrown in a mass of blades and hatred.

You feel the blades of disgust and self-defined justice pierce through your skin like a knife through butter.

You make sure that you are the only one left in your life with the least bit of happiness.

Poor melancholic creature you are that when happiness lies right before you to grasp

you let it fall through your fingertips falling into the abyss that is your despair.

Haunted by the past you are stuck in a panoramic view of your own faults

Dark creatures haunt your dreams but you know?

These creatures are of your own creation

An illusion made to keep you from seeing the truth

The truth that you are alone....

Alone because you pushed them away

Alone because you drove the blade in your own heart

Alone because you scarred your skin to make the pain less sharper

Alone because you thought being alone would save them

Alone.....because all you know is being alone