Make me a Mermaid

I want to swim _underwater for days at a time to escape the way I drown on ^land
To let the waves hold me together and silence what threatens to tear me apart
For the only pressure to be that of the endlessly water above me
For the only falls to be intentional and the only thing that plummets is the ocean floor
To be surrounded by silent companions who know that their presence is enough
As their colors flashes past me I know that they feel no hate, no malice, and no bitterness
They remain silent, not overly opinionated about things they can't fathom
Not deceptive, misleading, cunning or snide
No simple creatures, like the world under the ocean, simple, beautiful
This is world that I wish would swallow me whole so I can grow fins and escape the way I drown on land
The way that the burn of the words of those who ‘care’ scorch my skin
The way the air in this place taste like envy, bitterness, anger, hate, denial, unhappiness
How I can I breathe easy when this very air is poison to a mind already broken?
I’d trade my lungs for gills to be filled with pure beauty and simplicity
I’d trade my legs for a tail to no longer walk on eggshells and shattered egos
Make me a mermaid, free and alone
Where the screams are beyond muffled, they can't even be heard
Set me free from this place, the place that drowns me with its air
I would much rather be beneath the waves blowing bubbles instead of breathing air