I Dreamt of You Last Night

You came to me,
In my sleep,
Telling me,
I needn't weep.

Kinda patronizing,
Don't ya think?

Whilst I'm blazing,
Like a fire, damn you'll sink.

You underestimate me,
All cos you can't see,
The fire beneath these wings.

You won't have me freed,
Only need me to bleed,
And then burn away everything.

All that we had,
You'd rather go mad,
Instead of helping me.

Damn it can't you see?
That you're never happy,
And you're hurting me.

You came to me,
Telling me I'm okay,
I don't need to see,
That, anyway.

You don't understand,
Why I took your hand,
I was vulnerable,
Just so breakable.

You let me fall,
Burnt down it all.

Looked past the doctor, the teacher,
Potentially even a layer.

I could be anything,
Yet you'd make me sing,
Telling me that's all I am,
A songstress never to give a damn.

I am your weapon,
Your little demon.

I sing when you want me to,
But I no longer sing for myself.

Guessing who I sing for? YOU,
You have me damaging my health.

Thinking, "Will he be impressed?"
"Am I well enough dressed?"

Who really gives a fuck,
This life shouldn't suck.

You should've given me a chance,
This was never romance,
You should have believed in me,
But never did you see.

How I am beautiful,
Regardless of this tune,
I am colourful,
Regardless of this room.

It's so dark,
All alone,
Need a spark,
To call home.

I had that once,
You took it away,
Now what everyone wants,
Is for that spark to stay.

My family call me back,
Regardless of all I lack.

They want me to be fine,
Never again cross a line.

Be okay with mistakes,
Stray from heartbreaks.

Be okay with myself,
Don't discard health.

I promised them I would do,
Everything to get me through,
Yet you keep asking me to sing,
I ain't fucking gonna' be singing.

Tonight I will revise,
And I will read,
And I will recognise,
That I no longer bleed.

Our songs used to be of hatred,
Yet now I can rest my head,
Without feeling so endlessly livid,
And no longer regretting what I did.

I'll move on from that mistake,
But my voice isn't for you to take.

You can't hear my song anymore,
Because that song has become my chore.

For it stood for everything I used to adore...

I dreamt of you last night,
Which is why I feel fright,
I dreamt of a voice,
Screaming, making no choice.

I heard a shout,
"Let me out!"

I let her free,
That girl was me.

And I will never let her break again,
I will never confuse ignorance with pain.

For I have learnt what it is to be,
Free and so damn lucky.

And I have learnt that when you're in sight,
I should stray away from you to protect this.

Protect the fact I dreamt of you last night,
And find my way to finally achieve bliss.

Because I have knowledge and health on my side,
And that should be enough to fuel my fight,
Whilst I continue to breathe, I shall forever confide,
Thinking of that will help me to sleep tonight.

For I no longer have to sleep with the light,
The light will be with me from day to night...
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When your past comes back to haunt you, you acknowledge it, smile and simply walk away. Because that part of your life is over now :) x x x x