Thoughts and Ramblings and Whatnots

I cry out for help.
Can't you hear my shrilling yelp?
I'm being pulled under.
My arms flail and sunder.

I reach out to grab the closest thing
That I'll be able to cling.
Why won't you give me a hand 
that will bring me back to land?

I can't stop my crying,
and if you knew the truth there would be no denying
That I can't do this alone.
Right now I'm stuck doing things many don't condone.

I need it all to end.
I'm tired of having to pretend.
I'm full of mixed emotions;
Perhaps I'm just full of wrong notions

So many things are going wrong.
I sure hope this won't last for long.
Not sure how much more I can take
'Cause right now it's my life that's at stake.

I don't think I'll do it though.
The closest I've been to it is just letting my blood flow.
I look back and see all I''ve been through;
And I really don't know what to do. 

I don't want to be a burden,
And I thank you for being there when I needed more than a pen.
I see that I've started to ramble, 
But right now I'm stuck in the brambles.

Confusion crowds my brain;
You may see it but it's rather hard to explain.
Right now I'm at a loss,
And you may say, "Just tell your parents." or "Lay it at the cross."

I wish it were that easy.
You may disagree,  
And that's completely fine;
I don't expect our thoughts to align.

We are just merely human,
And these feelings are sure to happen again.
Nothing is guaranteed 
That's why sometimes we bleed.