A Delusional Love
Oh darling
you are constantly in my mind
You haunt me in my dreams, telling me of what could never be
Why do you keep on torturing me
Still, like a fool I hope that love will blossom
But I always have to remind myself that nothing will ever happen for you are the sun and I am just one of many plants competing for your attention
You’re a magnet and the whole world is interested in you but I am just one lost broken girl looking for something to believe in
A dark cloud hovers over me at all times but you are as light and as free as the wind
I want to pour out my heart to you but fear stops me
One day I promise I swear I will tell you all of this and more
but for now please pardon every flawed part of me
Instead just focus on why you gave me the title of friend in the first place not the things that annoy you
and I will focus on you
—
Some say I’m obsessed
but I disagree
Maybe it’s an infatuation because your smile constantly is on rewind in my thoughts
Maybe it’s a crush because the thought of your rejection crushes me constantly
Maybe I just like the thought of you
Or maybe I just like you
Honestly, all I want to do is talk with you about anything and everything until the sun comes up
I want to be around you constantly
and to get inside your head, to know more about you
I want to learn about your past and what makes you tick
Is it love or do I want to become a mind reader?
Either way, it messes with my head
I take things much too seriously now
and everything reminds me of you
But you want another, so I have to wait with thorns attached to my body
until you realize your mistakes and fall into someone else’s arms
Eventually I will get over this star-crossed love
that was never meant to happen
But in the meantime
everything hurts,
and your voice makes it better
So won’t you talk to me
because my anxiety clouds my judgement
Why am I making things so much harder then it has to be
I should accept the fact that you aren’t going to feel the same way
and I am too shy and afraid of rejection
But I cannot
so I keep dreaming of a day that will never come
you are constantly in my mind
You haunt me in my dreams, telling me of what could never be
Why do you keep on torturing me
Still, like a fool I hope that love will blossom
But I always have to remind myself that nothing will ever happen for you are the sun and I am just one of many plants competing for your attention
You’re a magnet and the whole world is interested in you but I am just one lost broken girl looking for something to believe in
A dark cloud hovers over me at all times but you are as light and as free as the wind
I want to pour out my heart to you but fear stops me
One day I promise I swear I will tell you all of this and more
but for now please pardon every flawed part of me
Instead just focus on why you gave me the title of friend in the first place not the things that annoy you
and I will focus on you
—
Some say I’m obsessed
but I disagree
Maybe it’s an infatuation because your smile constantly is on rewind in my thoughts
Maybe it’s a crush because the thought of your rejection crushes me constantly
Maybe I just like the thought of you
Or maybe I just like you
Honestly, all I want to do is talk with you about anything and everything until the sun comes up
I want to be around you constantly
and to get inside your head, to know more about you
I want to learn about your past and what makes you tick
Is it love or do I want to become a mind reader?
Either way, it messes with my head
I take things much too seriously now
and everything reminds me of you
But you want another, so I have to wait with thorns attached to my body
until you realize your mistakes and fall into someone else’s arms
Eventually I will get over this star-crossed love
that was never meant to happen
But in the meantime
everything hurts,
and your voice makes it better
So won’t you talk to me
because my anxiety clouds my judgement
Why am I making things so much harder then it has to be
I should accept the fact that you aren’t going to feel the same way
and I am too shy and afraid of rejection
But I cannot
so I keep dreaming of a day that will never come