Guilty

I stand on the wall like a guilty man
Watching another man look down the sights at him
I'm nothing more than that girl you fucked in a forest and
I go day by day wondering wasn't I good enough?

Inside and out?
Despite how doomed we were wasn't I something to talk about?
You called me a lovely woman like it was nothing and
You said all these things knowing I would fall for them.

I still don't blame you.
I never will.
You shouldn't have messed with me,
you just added to the bill
of all the pain I can't pay for
and you know I can't take anymore.

To face God would be a farce
I'm ashamed and embarrassed I even took part.
I'm a sinner
Not a winner
A loser.

Not everyone can be as lucky as you,
Skipping throughout the tall grass,
fucking anything that walks past
Just because you can.
Do you even feel anything when you remove yourself from your pants?
Other than desire or my touch that brought fire?

I stand on the wall like a guilty man.
Watching another look down the sights at him.
I'm nothing more than that girl you fucked in a forest and
I close my eyes but still see your finger on the trigger dance.
Please I beg of you like I did that day
End it all.
Yes.
End it all.
Yes.
End it all.
Yes!

But you can't because the bullet goes right through me
You called me an angel
but you got it wrong
I'm a ghost,
I'm not sent from God.
I'm gone.
I'd be surprised if you felt me all
I have no effect on the waking world
I'm a woman of the night
Used and toyed with when you justify its right.
Gullible and naive
I fell for it all on my knees
But you like that don't you?
When you push in and sigh
and I hear my name called out in a cry
I know its all I'm good for
So let me check my schedule
I'd put you down for sunday
but God has a few choice words for me