I Am Lost

Your love is deep down,
Unlike mine that scratches the surface,
I take blame as it breaks the skin,
By still loving I have been made to endure hell,
Maybe he's still in there is what others say,
But he's gone,
Drowned in medication,
burned by acid that fills his mind,
Reality the cruel temptress,
Tells me in my own disbelief,
He's gone,
The only thing that remains is a simple sign,
Carved within the wood is just three simple words,
I am lost.