The Bridge

sometimes it feels like when i realized
what gender identity was
or when i figured out i wasnt what
is on my birth certificate
i started
crossing a bridge
and
i've been walking
forever
and ever and ever and ever and ever
and
ever
and its exhausting
its like there are houses
above the bridge
and the people in them
are screaming at me
screaming harsh words,
slurs,
telling me i'm
"ungrateful with what i was born with"
or
"where are you even going!"
by
the other people
on the bridge
but
i finally stopped
where i felt
comfortable
and i'm getting yelled at
even more
by the people in the houses
and the people
crossing the bridge
and its just
so repetitive
the words are echoing
but i'm trying to stand
im trying to keep standing
but its so hard
its like my head
is exploding
10 times per second
every time
i do anything
on that bridge
sometimes it feels like when i realized
what gender identity was
or when i figured out i wasnt what
is on my birth certificate
i started
crossing a bridge