Her Poem

When I first met you,
I wasn't quite sure what to think.
You weren't the type to let people in easily
So it was hard to really see the you
Behind all the walls you seemed to have
Around yourself.
As the year went on,
I began to see who you were
And we became close friends.
Then something changed,
At least for me,
After San Diego.

I started having feelings for you.

Most may think it was only because
I used your boobs as pillows
And that that was what did it.
But it wasn't.
It was how wonderful and how right it felt
To be by you all night,
All snuggled close under the blankets.
I never told anyone because it honestly scared me,
But I always thought about how it felt.

Then came junior year.
My feelings for you never went away
And only seemed to grow.
We became closer and closer but only as friends.
I started learning more about you,
And not just general things like your hobbies and interests.
I learned how to make you laugh.
I learned the look on your face and the deafening silence
When something was wrong.
I learned how easy it was to talk to you about anything.
I learned all about your light side and your darker side
And both made me fall for you more.
I remember at the holiday choir concert,
And times before that,
You always seemed to hug me from behind.
I felt so warm and safe in your arms.
It was bliss.

Then came the fateful night.
Messing around, I told Daniela I couldn't be attracted to her
Because it would practically feel like incest.
Then you asked, "Would you feel attracted to me?"
I hesitated and said no comment,
Which I was surprised you didn't see as an answer
Since I'm fairly easy to read.
I struggled for days in whether I should tell you the answer.

It wasn't until school had ended
That I finally told you how I felt.
I was prepared for any bad reaction,
Even though I knew you were bi.
I prepared myself for things to be awkward
Or to even lose a friend.
Imagine my shock when you said you felt the same way.
I felt like the luckiest person in the universe.
I was so happy,
I wanted to burst out singing in the middle of the night
And dance like a crazy person
(which we all know no one wants to see).

Pops concert senior year,
A night I will always remember.
The night we first kissed.
I was so nervous that you could feel my heart pounding
And I knew you were nervous too.
When your soft lips touched mine,
I felt something deep within me
That I never thought I would find in high school:
Love.

Love is something I believed couldn't be found
In high school couples.
Teenagers change too much
And love isn't something that's there one moment
And gone the next.
"Falling in love is like falling asleep.
It happens slowly and then all at once."
And it stays in you through even the toughest storms.
But you changed something in me
And now I know it's possible.

Our year has been crazy.
It's been full of so many ups and downs.
But we made it through and now
"We're on a roller coaster that only goes up."

You are the biggest dork I know (and the wiggliest).
You're also stubborn,
And hardheaded,
And sometimes you can make me want to scream into a pillow
Because you frustrate me so damn much.
But you are also the most
Passionate,
Loving,
Compassionate,
Beautiful,
Strong,
And incredible
Woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.
I know you probably don't believe me
And will just roll your eyes as you read this
But it's true.
You're so amazing
And every time you do something
That makes me fall in love with you all over again
(Which is everyday),
I thank whatever god, goddess, spiritual energy,
random ghost that shipped us
And decided to bring us together
That you are mine and that you miraculously want me too.
I love you baby.
More than any fandom
And all the cherry coke in the world.