Happily Broken

My heart is filled with joy
I think it's real
It feels like a toy
Easy to melt
And turns surreal

While I smile I look into these eyes
Behind them I see no surprise
I see nothing but stifled cries
And hollowed ties
So I look into these eyes
And see nothing but demise..

My heart is filled with joy
I can only hope it's true
And not another ploy

All I Fucking want is to smile
Once in a fucking while
So when I have a fucking child
She can see me fucking smile
And know
I'll be here for a fucking while..

But hey look at me!
I'm AS EMPTY AS THE SEA!
A pinnacle
of FUCKING MISERY!
Look at me
HOW I BLEED ON THE STREET
Fucking SEE?!
Just like you and me
Fucking BLEED

So sad how they fucking cry
While im sitting here wondering why
I cannot die
Im alive
For fucking why?!
Scream it to the sky
FUCKING WHY

Why do I live in this place
Where the human fucking race
Is a fucking disgrace
Even in space
We spread our fucking waste
Its a waste
Its like a lasting taste
Of a poison fucking paste
Keep a steady pace
While you fucking burn
Into seemingless haste

My heart was filled with joy
Once upon a time,
When I was a fucking boy
That time has gone
Like a broken fucking toy