Lost

This is crazy, I lost my baby.
For good she's gone, inside my heart is torn.
She wants the best for me but I can't go on, she is the girl I want forever I'll hold on.
IRB is the love of my life, she left my life and I can't continue the fight.
I rather be dead, got a job and my license cause she wanted me to, what a waste of energy and time I put in.
She claims I did her wrong, I just tried to show her how she made me feel for past problems.
She probably won't read this cause she told me to move on, I guess all of our past and memories are dead and gone :(.
All I need is her back, but she's to good for that.
Im going to try and push on, but if I can't I wanna her to know my love is not gone