3000 Miles From Your Kiss

Dear You,
Why is it that my cat
is my only friend?
The only one
that can make the sadness end?
Why is it
that you don't exist?
Why is it
that I can't feel your arms around me?

Why is it
That I see you in my dreams?
That we're together
as some one else?
You are one,
I am the other.
Why is it
That when I try to find you
I always fail and it never works out?

Am I destined to be without you?
To be the crazy cat lady?
To trade love for riches?

I need you
to be by my side,
to comfort me
when I am sad.
To play with me
when I am playful.
To cuddle me
when I am lovey.
To give me a friend
when I need it most.
To rejoice with me
when I am happy
To be my lover
when I want.

Why is it
that I can't feel your arms?
Why don't you exist?
Why am I plagued with you
when I know it's not meant to be.
Why do I get this feeling
when I see others together,
when I see others kiss
and I have you not?

Why is it
that you haunt my every dream?
Why am I happy
when characters end up together?
Why do I wish
to have what they have?
Why do I want you so much?
Why do you make me cry
when I know you don't exist?
why do I speak to you
when I am alone?
When in truth
there is no one there?

Dear Who Ever
Please tell me why?
Why do I see your ghost
when you are not there?
Why do I dance with you
then people think I'm crazy...
or Alone.

Who are you to me?
An image
that my mind made up?
a future
that I will experience?
A myth
that will never be?
Who am I to you?
Who are you to me?