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The taste of copper on your skin is like a bitter punch to my gut
I look down on my dreams to see them bleeding and worn down
Can not help but laugh because crying would not help at all
Desperation is long gone from my mind
Desperation was for someone who actually had hope in the future
I am no longer such a being
Rather I am someone who has fallen to his knees and stares blankly into the stars
Trying to find meaning within them, find something to believe in
But all I see are giant balls of gas
waiting to end my misery in a blaze of fire
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are my thoughts for they share no meaning at all
I try to map out the maze within my mind but all I end up is lost.
Lost in my dreams,
Lost in all the things I wish I could be,
Lost forever lost in the pain and sorrow that haunts my mind
You could say I am silly to keep going on, to keep giving hope where there is none
I want it all to end, yet my trigger finger is not happy
In the end I find too many reasons to stay but not enough to try
So even if I may not lay in a coffin, my mind will be as gone as if I was