Shattered

Was I on yours when you had too much to drink?
When those drugs touched your tongue
and the alcohol scorched your throat?

Did you even think of how I felt when you let her lips touch yours
the ones that only I had tasted for the past year and nine months?
You cried your heart out to me
held me tightly
and said that you were sincerely sorry

But I hated you
I hate the way you let her sink her teeth in your neck
where mine have been
And I hate the way you allowed her to taste your lips
where mine have been
I hated that you threw away that year and nine months away

You say it was because you missed me
You gave up so damn fast
Why?

You were fucked up on drugs and liqour
Every one of your friends told me that you were a wreck
and didn't want to hurt me
I pushed it in the back of my mind because I just can't
even believe that you truly love me

But...
...the truth was
Even though you did this absolutely insulting and degrating thing to me
and our relationship
and I can't really put my full trust back into you just yet

I'm still in love you.

You give me life
My happiness is because of you
I should let you go
I should just let you be on your own
But I can't

I want to spend the rest of my dim life with you
and let you fill it with light again
Don't let me go
I'm giving you this second chance
and I'm still broken
Please repair me