Ashamed

You don't see, do you?
Blind in away only your subconscious could bleed,
Tear this moment inside and out,
My blood so it's cursed,
My words so it's worse,
Wavelength away from the silence,
Over inside my head it's on fire,
Nothing seems like everything,
When all you know is,
The memories,
A surge of fear when everything is changing
And you have no idea why,
So nights seems like days,
Awake in the hours,
Alone when you should be so loved,
Ashamed in the way things became.