Splinter in My Heart

I am rolling stone

I am the free-falling leaf that falls in your face in the big gust of air on a windy autumn day

I am the one you see with the map but no where to go

I am the one that fakes a smile to make everyone think I have a fantastic life

I have secrets I can never tell anyone due to not being able to trust due to a not-so-fairy-tale life

He left a splinter in my heart

Made it bruise

Made it deeper

Made me have to watch my back in case he's right behind me

With every step that I take,

I have to watch my back because if I don't

I will relive every moment in a series of flashbacks so painful, the next-door neighbors would be able to see the tragic tale you brought upon

It was in that moment

I knew I wouldn't be able to trust again

In risk of being known that your own kind of category:

Fake, cheap, makes-girls-scared-and-not-wanting-to-walk-out-my-front-door-because-I-fear-you're-there-to-come-at-me-and-verbally-throw-your-words-of-pain-and-misery-at-me category

The mental pain I will soon not recover from

The ten pounds of chocolate that is waiting for me but won't do a single thing but sit there kind of pain

The pain that you get from skinning your knee after you fall off your bike but the sting that just seems to last for hours kind of pain

The mental misery that haunts you for your life kind of pain

And you know that if you let go,

That you will fail

And fall apart

So you try to stick it together

But then the words get brought up once again as soon as you think its over

But then you end up falling apart once again

So the pain still lingers

I hold myself together

But then I finally crack

You have cracked me

And I am broken, one tap and I am the shards of glass that are stuck onto the ground you walk on from the loose light bulb in your kitchen

Tap

Fall down

Take away this pain

Please

Take away

The splinter of you that is a dagger in my heart for everyone to never see

Never notice

Because until that one finds it

They may not tear it out and fill it with the bandage of the love that they could give

To me to mend me with a needle and string

My splinter in my heart

A splinter that never goes away

Is a line that is written for all who have hurt