The Educated and Damned

They tell you it gets easier
easier to fight off the demons
without medication
just relaxation
a good nights sleep
and breakfast.

There will be mornings when
flicking off your bedroom light
sounds like a gunshot
in the dark
when the stairs
are a balancing act.

Why is this a monster
that chews through your life
your sleeping schedule
your friends
your state of mind
for a prize made of air.

They say it gets easier
with every passing day
but my question is why is it
so difficult in the first place
sitting there impatiently
trying not to cry.

I wish I could wake up once
without hazy purple eyes
and trembling fingers
that my deep jean pockets
and girls makeup
cannot strive to hide.

God, why does this sound
like I'm writing depression medication
when I'm really just talking
about school.