I Can't Write

Why did I ever think I was a good writer?
Grades tell me all I need to know--
and I Know I’m not a good writer.
I know I can’t get my words on the page
in a way you’ll like
to read.
Isn’t that true?
Otherwise that grade--
the one I’m obsessing over--
would be an A, or a B,
but not a C.
Oh, with a plus,
because nothing says,
“You can’t write, but here’s an a for effort,”
Like a fucking plus.