Hateful, Hateful, Hateful

Hateful, hateful, hateful.
An environment filled with more negativity than positivity.
I can't get it right, I can't seem to prove myself no matter how hard I try.
My efforts do not seem to be enough for them.
The criticism and the drama still exists.

The comments of the others haunt me in the daytime and in my dreams.
The stress keeps coming and this load I cannot bear.
Even though I'm walking on eggshells, I feel like none of them see that.
It goes beyond criticism, with high school drama evident in college.
The days and nights are blending together.
Hateful, hateful, hateful.
Lacking sleep is catching up to me, slowly but surely.

I do not know how to fix the problems I have created for cast and crew. Nothing works.
It seems that I need to go with the flow and leave their comments in the past.
I need to put it behind me and take criticism lightly.