The Ocean of Chaos

It hurt that everyone had let go so easily. The people that were suppose to be there for me left. The only time they come around is when they're in distress. This may sound selfish but what about me? I need help I'm drowning in this chaos that is my life now. I have lost so much in a short period of time. Even before the loss I was barely staying afloat. My life vest just bursted and I'm slowly sinking to the bottom of the ocean of chaos while my "friends" all watch and laugh. We use to be so close but when I needed them for a change everything changed. My life in general has changed and my friendship with people I've known forever is gone. My own family doesn't even know what I've been through because all I can do is bottle it up inside. I can't be a burden to anyone but I need help! BADLY! I just need someone to talk to and release all of the emotions that I have inside that are eating me alive. It hurts that everyone had let go so easily