Not Yet

Not happy enough to keep a smile on my face
Not sad enough to cry myself to sleep
Not crazy enough to act out in front of strangers
Not sane enough to get through the day with no questioning looks
Not pretty enough compliment myself
Not ugly enough to hate how I look
Not fat enough to stop eating entirely
Not skinny enough to feel comfortable
Not boring enough to put people asleep
Not exciting enough to keep a conversation alive
Not old enough to help out whenever I can
Not young enough to tolerate instead of being called a burden
Not scared enough to think about it 24/7
Not brave enough to not be bothered by it
Not bad enough to give up
Not good enough to motivate myself every single day