Ennui

I'm tired of this lonely and seemingly empty strife.
I need something interesting to do with my life.
Suffering from a boredom like this,
How haven't I grabbed a knife?

I should use a blade to spread creativity upon this situation,
Rather than watching myself rot as a worthless creation,
But nothing ever seems to feel me with any elation.
I think I need a new affiliation.

Something should fill this void of a beating heart.
I've already tried different kinds of art.
Athletics has never been my strong part,
And as far as academics I know I'm smart.

Nothing can easily satisfy me anymore.
I lay here on the floor unable to snore,
And nothing presents itself to my door.
What new thing can I explore?