I'm Alright, Not OK

Yes, I'am alright,
but, no I'm not ok.....
I just don't want to be here today.
Because I'm tired of faking the smiles on my face.
I'm just so tired of feelin drained.
I'm tired of laughing off my pain.
I just wish I can fade away...

Yes, I'am alright,
But, No, I'am not ok.
I just don't want to talk anymore.
Due to trying to yell for help, my throat is sore.
My body is weak.
I just want to fall,and, stay asleep.
Because, my dreams are sometimes worse then my reality
I just rather not be here.
I'm so worn out from trying not to break down..

Yes, I'am alright,
But, No, I'am not ok...
I just feels like no one cares......
I just feel so incrediably numb.
I just really want to be done....
But, I can't do it, because of my love ones.....
So, here I'am...Struggling,and, struggling.
Suffercating,and, suffercating....
Because........
Yes, I'am alright....
But To be perfectly honest....I'm not ok.......