Noiseless

I feel everything crashing down on me
The waves and the air and the ground
The weight’s always been too much
For me to take.

I’m not brave or strong or worthwhile
I don’t deserve to be called a son
Crash, let everything crush me
Don’t have mercy on me.

I have done no wrong
I have done no good
I deserve the unyielding storms
Brought upon my being.

Let me crash and burn
They way I was always meant to
There will remain no part of me
In this ashen world that stole my youth.

Feel my bones break
I feel my skin rip
I am a fading flame
Out of a too-loose grip.

Forgive me not for what I haven’t done
Condemn my soul for my recklessness
Knowingly daring the sun
And foolishly hiding underwater.

Now let the surf consume what’s left in me
Not that there was anything to begin with
That flash of underwater flames before
Was what destiny had in store for me.

Don’t shed senseless tears
Or scream muffled words
The end is too near
My sundown is gone.