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And I know the way home, I know where I’m going.
I’ve had it on my mind for days
These days have been long and I’ve been aching
But I know the pain will not last forever.
I will be fine for three days.
I will not think about the things that are causing me to crack,
I will not pay attention to my fears of time slipping,
I will not let my home be tainted by my own impurities.

And I never used to cry in times like these,
But I guess I’m getting weaker.
It never used to be so hard to put the key in the ignition,
But I guess there’s gravity in my roots.
I never thought I’d have to keep so much inside,
But I guess I’m a grown-up now. I’m big for a reason.

And I don’t like the idea of time passing.
There are days where I wish it could all be over,
Days where I want the clock to run out of batteries,
Days when I’m doing nothing and I want a fresh start tomorrow.
I never get what I want, and I have had to come to terms with that.
I never thought I could feel like a skeleton at nineteen.

And I know the way home, I know where I’m going.
And I don’t need a god damn map to show me the way.