2am thoughts - november25th2014

I had a mild panic attack today
When I started thinking about how long you've been gone.
I say 'mild' because I've had worse thinking about the same thing.

I smoke more now,
I remember you always telling me how much you hate it
I guess it reminds me of you,
Thats why I don't stop.
Funny how they are slowly killing me
Just like you being gone.