Five Years

i gave away all the love i had,
and a little bit more,
at the age of 17
to a boy who had no idea
the magnitude of the promises he made
his lips formed words that built worlds and dreams
then broke them all down with the same movements
that whispered forevers into the nape of my neck
as two became one
and the sounds that vibrated through the air
from his mouth to my ears
became permanently imprinted
into the long-term memory of my brain
i soon found out that he
suffered from short term memory
he fell asleep one night
just as smitten as i
then woke up the next morning
and experienced a change of mind
unfortunately for me
i suffered as well
but in a completely unrelated way
because while he slept from then on
with the ability to dream of something new
i am not allowed the privilege
of creating new memories with another
when his misleading temporary vows
will be forever imprinted in my mind
my heart
my soul
my life
i gave away all the love
i had to give
(and a little bit more)
at seventeen
and five years later
i have yet to get it back