A Goodbye to the Pain

So now your back.
Last night you told me you loved me,
and all I could think of was you coming back into my life.
I held in the heartache and torn memories
and whipped out my strongest smile.
You
will not take my soul like you did before.
You
will not tell me my worth or who I am.
You
will not destroy me.
I fell down before.
I broke down
screaming,
aching
hurting.
Like a victim being prayed upon,
I suffered major casualties to the heart.
You tore me down from every tree top I perched myself upon,
and you tore down my fragile walls.
I had to search to find myself, asking who I am, and how I should be.
Should I be perfection? Should I be this obsessive?
But in the end I found myself.
I am happy with a lot of my imperfections and I'm struggling to accept the faults i still battle.
But now I at least I love being able to smile because of something I did or something I've said.
At least now I don't have a devil in my ear telling me how I will never be able to be the perfection you desire.
I will not be dragged backwards like a corpse,
so that you can have your way with me just like you did before.
So walk away,
because this is the end.