But I Do

I wonder if you still think about her
Do you?
I wonder if you have sweet dreams about her
Do you?
I wonder if you still smile at the memories
Do you?
I wonder if you miss her children now
Do you?
I wonder if you still love her even now
Do you?

Because I don't want to think about her anymore
But I do
Because I don't want to have nightmares about her
But I do
Because I don't want to cringe at the recollections
But I do
Because I don't want to see their faces at night
But I do
Because I don't want to hate myself over her
But I do