"Just a Phase"

I came out to my mom
on November 5th 2014
I will not forget that day.

My hands were shaking
My heart racing
and I was on the verge of tears.

She was super supportive
at first...
But then
a couple weeks later
while getting ready to go see family
and while I'm talking about the person I like

She turned to me and said
"I think you liking girls
is just a phase."

Uhm... What?
Can you repeat that?
I dont recall you telling
My older brothers
that them liking girls
is "just a phase"

I mean
I don't like talking back
but you cannot tell me that.

Coming out
is the hardest thing
and words like that
hurt worse
than falling in love
and the other person
not feeling the same.

I am almost in tears writing this
because you don't support
what I choose to do with my life
and it hurts
a lot.
And as my tears fall
staining the paper
I think to myself
I shouldn't told you.
It would've made it
somewhat easier
but it would eat me alive
and slowly but surely
kill me.