How Could You Ask Me to Live?

The blade slides across my skin,
Leaving blood smeared thighs,
I've fucked up one last time.
It's been so long since I used a blade,
To break the skin,
To take the pain away.
I've been so strong,
As strong as I could be,
Until I had to be weak.
A tear quietly falls down my cheek,
Oh why couldn't I keep myself safe?
Why did I let my demons in,
Oh darling they're tearing out my heart,
Slowly ripping me apart from within.
Please,
Please take this pain away.
How can you look in my eyes,
And see the torture there,
And ask me to choose to live?

1/18/15 - 10:41 PM