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I'm drowning again
Letting myself get pushed under
Swallowing mouthfuls of water
Letting it fill my lungs
Blue lips and pale skin
In my near future.

I have to fight this
Push back and hide away
I don't want this
How could I?
Dying in every metaphoric way
And yet here I am
Doing it all over again

I'm flying off your kisses
Flying high of your love
Eyes open, Unable to stop
Little kisses and puppy dog eyes
Happy until...

BANG!
Cliff of rock and dead flesh.
Peel me off and throw me away
Was I ever anything other than Ashes and blankets?

I have to fight this
Push back and hide away
I don't want this
How could I?
Dying in every metaphoric way
And yet here I am
Doing it all again.

When I fall, face first, eyes shut
You'll leave
When I open my arms
I'll hug the air
Where your body use to be
I'll place my heart
Where I wished yours was
Leave it beating in pulse with yours

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Bumbum
Bum...

I can't fight this
Running back and letting you in
I want this
How could I?
Dying in every realistic way
And yet here I am
Wanting it all again.

...I'm sorry...
...I'm sorry...
...I'm sorry...