I Can Not Express Myself

I can not explain myself,
Though I am filled with things
To say.
Thousands of thoughts pass through
My mind,
Each relevant
to the next,
Buzzing like a swarm of bees
Which is rhythmically chanting
"Say this",
"Say that".

I can not explain to you that
I understand
what you are saying
Or how
I came to a decision,
I just get it.
I'm not able to open my mouth,
Allowing everything I think to come out
Raw and Unfiltered,
Perfect and Collected.

I can not express
my anger
Through words without
becoming flustered and
making strange sounds which only
Add to the confusion.

I can not sound out
The words I make
In my mind
Which talk about the importance
Of understanding how
The brain works
And which talk about
How interesting it would
Be if everyone
Could see music
Rather than hear it.

I can not express myself.
I can not show my true views.
I can not be heard as me.
Thank god for written languages.