The After Thoughts of Him

My heart ached as I saw you
My eyes filled with tears when you smiled
My lungs felt suffocated when you approached me
My legs gave out underneath me when you reached me

Your smile wasn't for me
Your happiness wasn't directed at me
Your jokes weren't to make me laugh
Your eyes which were filled with sparks weren't looking at me

Why did I think you liked me
Why did I think I was good enough for you
Why did I think you would find me attractive
Why did I think we could happen

How can I forget the times when I made you laugh
How can I forget the times when your jokes were for me
How can I forget the times when your smile used to be for me
How can I forget the times when you used to look at me with those spark filled eyes