Makeup and Tattoos

Makeup and tattoos
Long, encompassing waves of hair
A fake personality
Can't cover up what's there
You loss so much weight
From the drugs and despair
You loss so much weight
Bones smile in the mirror
You're no longer there
You're hidden by your fears
Everyone changes

Who knew friends were a fashion trend?
I didn't, until I could no longer fit
Until, I felt unwearable
I thought my friendship had meant something
I thought those late nights, story telling
Had meant something
I thought those sunsets on the sidewalk
Had meant something
I thought every laughing fit, suffocating
Meant something
I thought knowing each other's pain and happiness
Had meant something
In fact, you made it feel like nothing
It was then that I realized
It wasn't me

You're hidden by your fears
Everyone changes
Well yeah, everyone changes
But you don't completely disappear
You don't completely disappear
But maybe, I'm just strangled by desperation
This nostalgia is the distress of this siren
These things were always changing
My disbelief couldn't save me
I was alone in the cold
Just like I always had been

Your makeup, tattoos, and hair
Usually emphasize you on display
But, it's fucking cold out there
You're a user for the heat

I'm still here, like the friend I promised I'd be
Should I be sorry for caring?
Should I be sorry for loving someone who refuses love?
We're always changing and changing differently, indefinitely