Escape

What is a cage?
Is it a physical barrier?
Or, is it a mental one?
Is a cage made
By someone?
Or, is a cage made
By your own two hands?
And what does it mean
To be caged?
What if, it is a barrier
Seen by no one?
Felt by no one?
Understood
By no one?
Invisible?

Fear is invisible
It is its own obstruction
It is its own weapon
Fear can exist in the darkness
Of nightmares
Fear can exist in the connection
To other people
Fear can exist
In our memories
Fear exists
Even invisible

I have had
Many cages built for me
Some
I happily jumped into
But, I had always seemed
To find the key
But, there is one cage
I can't get free
That one
I built for myself

I wasn't paying attention
Until I tried to flee
I didn't want to have the memories
Memories of
Drunkenly repeating
No
As I tried to sleep
Memories of
All
Those interrupted dreams
Even memories
I can't remember
I know exist

I've never been normal

I'll never feel normal

Ever since I was a kid
I had lost my innocence
I've never felt
Innocent
And then there is a person
I'm supposed to call
Dad
I wish
I could erase those memories

The cage I've been en-captured
I'm only now
Aware of
I hope I'm stronger than I think
So I can use this key
I wield for shelter
So I can use the truth
To overcome this fear