I Keep Talking

I keep talking
You ask why am I so loud?
I need my thoughts to seem like whispers
It fuels my need to shout

I stay quiet
You ask why is that?
I'm engulfed by the words swirling in my head
A cloud of darkness and doubt has set
And I cant find my way out of it.

So I chatter along
You ask me to slow down
I cant stop to take a moment to think
Risk those wretched thoughts seep back into me.

I keep talking
I ask why is no one listening?
All I ever wanted was happiness
It all went wrong from the beginning