Blind

If I could, I would make you see.

Crazy boy, I mad about you.
All I can think is how we used to be and I'm
Not sure we can ever have
That again.

Frantically searching for all the broken pieces, don't you
Understand? If only I
Could put these stupid syllables together, if I could
Keep you occupied but
I am struggling, clinging, drowning in this
Notorious idea that maybe you aren't actually
Gone.

Blindly,
Recklessly, I fight alone in the dark, terrified
Eyes wide open. If I am being honest
All that really matters is for you
To open your eyes and really see me again.
Haven't I given you everything? Please, just look at me.
Even for a second.