Not Everyday
Sometimes I worry –
No, that’s wrong.
Most of the time I worry.
I worry about a lot of things:
Do these jeans make my bottom look big?
Does my hair look this bad everyday?
Is this essay ever going to make sense?
Mostly, it’s trivial stuff, that same kind of stuff most people worry about.
Everyday stuff, like rent money and food
And maybe making something of myself some day –
It’s just the usual plague of the human mind.
But sometimes I worry about bigger stuff.
Sometimes I worry I’m losing it,
Losing myself,
In a world bigger than it has any business being,
In a world so big I worry I’ll never find what I’m looking for.
I worry about how much time I spend worrying –
If that makes any sense at all.
And a lot of the time, when I’m not worrying about all of this,
I worry about how I’m never going to find anyone like you.
No, that’s wrong.
Most of the time I worry.
I worry about a lot of things:
Do these jeans make my bottom look big?
Does my hair look this bad everyday?
Is this essay ever going to make sense?
Mostly, it’s trivial stuff, that same kind of stuff most people worry about.
Everyday stuff, like rent money and food
And maybe making something of myself some day –
It’s just the usual plague of the human mind.
But sometimes I worry about bigger stuff.
Sometimes I worry I’m losing it,
Losing myself,
In a world bigger than it has any business being,
In a world so big I worry I’ll never find what I’m looking for.
I worry about how much time I spend worrying –
If that makes any sense at all.
And a lot of the time, when I’m not worrying about all of this,
I worry about how I’m never going to find anyone like you.
♠ ♠ ♠
So, in case you didn't gather from the poem, I worry a lot. Like, A LOT. Like, keeps me up at night, a lot. Mostly it's trivial but I do waste a lot of my time pondering the bigger questions. But it's not like I have much better to do haha *cough*uni*cough*