Memory Cues
I seem to catch you, everywhere I go,
Perfume and cigarettes overwhelm my nose.
What went wrong, I guess I'll never know,
Just know that I miss you, whenever I'm alone.
And I know, I'll never get it back,
You're merely the mom I wish I had.
But I go through each day, trying to be everything you're not,
Trying to be better than walking around while I rot.
I smile and I laugh, I do the best that I can,
Even though most days I feel stuck in quick sand.
If you even cared, I'd like to think you'd be proud,
But you're far too busy, making a hazy cloud.
So I'll block it all out, all the memory cues,
Won't let in the bits and pieces that make me think about you.
Perfume and cigarettes overwhelm my nose.
What went wrong, I guess I'll never know,
Just know that I miss you, whenever I'm alone.
And I know, I'll never get it back,
You're merely the mom I wish I had.
But I go through each day, trying to be everything you're not,
Trying to be better than walking around while I rot.
I smile and I laugh, I do the best that I can,
Even though most days I feel stuck in quick sand.
If you even cared, I'd like to think you'd be proud,
But you're far too busy, making a hazy cloud.
So I'll block it all out, all the memory cues,
Won't let in the bits and pieces that make me think about you.