Rage

So many years in a wine filled rage
Walking free yet in a mental cage

Meds to keep from the edge
Staying alive is my only pledge

Accepting feelings of regret
My only comfort, a lit cigarette

Find Him in the midst of my mental storm
Can I believe when the faith is lukewarm?

Lord, just show me the way
Can't take the stress everyday

Please just make me a clear path
A valley of hope or a destructive wrath