Breakable Spirit

On the outside, walking in a daze
On the inside, emotions come in waves

My painful reality I'm forced to face
Condemned to an eternally dark place

Deriving from a past rooted in pain
Even simple contentment is hard to sustain

All this misery devours physically
Loves to torment sadistically

With my fragile heart and complex personality
My healing is slow with thoughts of mortality

Despite the instability of my despair
On my spiritual path, I'm planted I swear

Happiness in the far distance
Affliction prevails in my existence

I want serene to be my routine
To command the bad and unforeseen

To face the day with authority
My attitude is now my priority

Force myself to always keep going
Beautiful things will soon start showing

I will solidify my breakable spirit
With focused resolution there is no limit